Friday, April 30, 2010

Home

Dr. Maya Angelou at CSUN - Oct. 2009
I'm reading the book my grandma gave me for my birthday - "Letter To My Daughter" by Maya Angelou. I love reading her take on certain subjects - from love to humanity to giving birth. She writes everything so poetically, and gives a unique perspective on these subjects that makes them sound harmonious.

Last night I was reading her chapter on "Home," and it really resonated with me - having lived away from my family and friends (and home) for the first time in my life, I am more sensitive to what she said than ever before.

I wasn't sad, I didn't cry or get more homesick. It simply struck a chord in my heart and stayed with me - and I know it always will.

I am convinced that most people do not grow up. We find parking spaces and honor our credit cards. We marry and dare to have children and call that growing up. I think what we do is mostly grow old. We carry accumulation of years in our bodies and on our faces, but generally our real selves, the children inside, are still innocent and shy as magnolias.

We may act sophisticated and worldly but I believe we feel safest when we go inside ourselves and find home, a place where we belong and maybe the only place we really do.

-Dr. Maya Angelou, Letter To My Daughter

I just love how she thinks and writes (and speaks); I really enjoy her views and explanations of them. I'll probably be sharing more as I read more of the book, so watch this space!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Mind clutter.

Here are just a few of the things on my mind these days:

1. I love my new Blackberry.
I switched to Verizon last weekend (FINALLY!) and (FINALLY!) bought the new Blackberry Curve I have been wanting for ages. Unlimited email and browser usage, custom ringtones, Blackberry-to-Blackberry messenger, Twitter and Facebook apps = it's my dream.

2. I need a summer job.
And I can't stay with the friends I was hoping to stay with after school ends, so I lose a month of pay from my school-year job.

3. I miss my boyfriend.
But I'm seeing him June 2nd!!

4. Only two weeks left of school.
THANK. GOD.

5. But finals are going to kick my butt.
I'll just keep that two week countdown in mind...

6. I feel betrayed, hurt, and stabbed in the back by a longtime friend.
And exhausted from trying to be there for others who are dealing with their own drama...not that I don't want to help, but I'm exhausted from trying to help and not being able to.

7. I'm still a bit anxious about the outcome of the accident I had a few weeks ago.
If I ever see that bicyclist again, I might have to shove my fists in my mouth to keep from punching hers.

8. 27 more days until Bon Jovi at Giants Stadium, sightseeing New York and New Jersey, and seeing good friends.
YEAH BABY!!

9. Earthquakes.
There have been so many lately...little nerve-wracking...

10. The euro:dollar exchange rate is up to 75 cents per dollar!
Just in case you were wondering.

I swear my brain is panting. No wonder I feel like I could sleep all summer.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Something to chew on...

My friend Nicole posted this on Facebook the other day:

"So, Larry King is getting his 8th divorce, and Elizabeth Taylor is possibly getting married for a 9th time. Jesse James and Tiger Woods are, well...you know...Even Newt Gingrich is on his 3rd marriage. Yet the idea of same-sex marriage is what is going to destroy the institution of marriage??"

I thought she had a VERY good point, regardless of how you feel about homosexuality.